There's nothing better than having someone in your life who can give you a burst of encouragement whenever you need it. I'm lucky; I have several people like that around me. But one of my best friends in particular has a really good knack for getting me right on track. So I had a good talk with So best friend, you know who you are, I hate you for being right AGAIN! But thanks for making me realize what I already knew deep inside. Sometimes, you just have to kick me a little harder to get me to wake up!
I spent time listening to this best friend yesterday and I realized that as much as I have fought the changes within me and around me, change IS good. So many good things have happened to me, and strangely enough even the fibromyalgia is a good thing--it has made me want to be healthier, stronger, and give me the want to fight harder.
So I keep going. I keep moving. I'm growing up...I'm a grown up! (AAAAHHH!!!!) But I like it! I like the recognition of being someone so adult. I like the feeling of having so much power. I look back, career-wise and LOVE how far I have come. To start from the very bottom and to work myself up to where I am today is a blessing, a true blessing that I will not squander. I want to educate those around me and I want to share my knowledge and my skills.
When you get to this moment in your life you start to wonder why the hell it took so long to get here. Well, you did. YOU got in your own way. YOU put up the roadblocks. YOU decided what you were going to run from instead of face. Now it is YOU who must push yourself, the roadblocks and stop for God sakes RUNNING AWAY. Stop it. Run to it--with your candle in one hand and your sword in the other.
Face your fears, child.
Today, is a new day.
